My big question is how do we determine what is right and what is wrong? Each and everyday we are faced with choices that can determine our path of life and what we could or will become in the future. Decisions we make at different points in time may seem right in that moment, but is it really the best choice? Personally, I made a choice to verbally commitment to a university in New Hampshire for volleyball and sometimes I think about if it's the best school for me like did I make the choice too fast? Do I want to go to a small school like the university I have chosen or do I want to go to a huge university? Is it too far away? Do you really want to play D2 instead of D1? These questions replay over and over again in my head. Plus, part of me wants the uncertainty of applying to colleges and the stress of finding out if I got in or not. That may seem completely ludicrous, but the whole uncertainty of the situation is enticing to me since I already have a set plan for college. Now, if I wasn't already committed, I would probably be a big ball of stress and wishing I had a set plan for the future, but I guess it's like wanting to be short when your tall or vice versa. My choice to verbally commit was also entirely my own, which makes me second guess myself a little more than I usually would because I didn't ask my parents, my sister, or my friends for their input on if I should commit or not due the fact that I didn't want them to influence me one way or another. Now, don't get me wrong, my parents and the rest of my family helped me throughout the recruiting process, but the choice of deciding whether I should commit or not was entirely my own. As for my friends, they knew I was in the recruiting process, but they had no idea I was close to committing except for one of my friends, who had already committed to a university for softball, so she could understand and relate to my stress at that point in time. As for my choice, I don't regret it or wish I choose a different path. To be honest, I'm overall happy with my choice, but how do you know if it's the right choice or not? What is right and what is wrong? How do we truly know the difference?
